I looked into his deep blue eyes, wishing this moment never would end. But I knew it would, even if I want it or not. It makes me calm, to be in his present and having his arms wrapped around me. In his arms I feel safe, warm and happy. He is the only one that makes my life a reason to live, the only one who knows me the best.  I lean my head against his chest and he lays is chin on my head. We just stand there and feeling the heat from each other’s bodies. The bare thought about leaving him makes me want to escape with him, but I know that’s impossible. My lips search for his, and as our mouths touch, my tears begins to fall. I don’t want to ruin this moment, our last moment together, but I can’t help it. I stop kissing him and look into his eyes again. They are not the eyes that reminded me of the sea anymore, I can’t almost see its color because of the tears that is filling his eyes. He tries to smile at me, but fails, and so do I. We intertwine our hands in a hard grip and walk together to the door that will separate us forever.

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I wake up with a jerk and try to place the scream I heard… my own scream. I had those nightmares again, about Ethan getting tortured till death. I try to calm myself, convincing me that it was just a dream. I look out my bedroom window and see the sun rising up behind the trees. I know I won’t be able to sleep anymore, so I put on my robe and walk downstairs.

I haven’t been able to eat well for the last weeks, because of the separating between me and Ethan. And I don’t even feel the hunger when I open the larder. I decide to walk to Miss Manon, and just talk over a cup of tea.

I close the door carefully behind me, leaving my mother and little brother all alone, unprotected. I pull my leather jacket tightly around my thin body as I walk down the snowy road. The old tree-houses are dark; none of the people in the city shows a sign of life.  Except Miss Manon’s house that is welcoming me with light and happiness. Her house stands out against the other damaged houses. She’s the only one that kept the city spirit since the day that ruined everything. That made our beautiful and light town into a ghost-city. That day change something inside every human being, making everyone afraid of going out. Except Miss Manon, she’s everybody’s light and hope, making us calm when she stays in the streets. I hasten my steps, and want her arms wrapped around me just like Ethan’s was. It’s not the same, but it makes me feel safe again.

“Hello there Seraphina.” says Miss Manon with her sweet soft honey voice. She stands in the door opening and waiting for me.

“Hello Moon.” I say. I’ve always called her Moon. I should have called her sun, because that’s what she is for me, but Moon was much closer to Miss Manon. And in our city, the moon always shines bright against the dark night sky.

“Want some tea Syrup?” she asks using her nickname for me, and wraps her arm around my shoulders.

“You know I want to…” I say and giggle. I study her face and find it being anxiously.  I understand immediately that something is wrong, and there’s never something wrong in Moons persent. She looks back at me and sees that I know something’s not right.

“Sit down Seraphina, will you?” She says and makes a gesture to the stool against the table. I sit down and stir with the spoon in my hot tea. I look at her sitting on the opposite side of the table. She looks up on me with her big green eyes and opens her mouth to say something but close it again.  Then she uttered the words that crushed me into thousands of bleeding pieces.

“I’m going to die Seraphina. The doctor said I only have two months left to live.”

Did you guys like it or not? Do you want me to keep writing?

Watched some videos with one direction... AND I LOVE THEM! They are so funny! I die by laughter!
If you haven't watched or listened to 1D, do that now! You won't regret it. ♥

Picture from google, don't know who the photographer is...

Hey guys!
Well, today we ended much much later than yesterday... At 15:35... I hate ending school that late. But, our teachers have compensate that with a short day on Friday, thank goodness for that!

I am so nervous for the trip to Thailand! I don't know why, I think I haven't realized that we're actually going yet... Haha...

I just have to say I love Jennifer Lawrence! She's so funny! I watched some videos with her and I wish I had her personality. She's amazing! I'm laughing at every interview she's in!

Isn't she so gorgeous? I would die to look like her!

I just love this bag!

Hej på er!
Skriver på svenska nu, har pluggat hela eftermiddagen, och jag skriver mycket snabbare på svenska. Haha!

Ja, idag var en sådan där fin dag!
Jag låg och läste i en timma i sängen, åt en riktig brakfrukost och sedan var vi ute i trägården och kratta och välkomnande våren!
Mot tre tiden kom pappa och hämtade mig och vi åkte ut i skogen för att ta lite bilder.
Sedan kom jag hem och spelade lite piano och gitarr och pluggade SO och spanska.
Har helt enkelt haft en bra dag! Hihi!

Ha riktigt fin kväll hörni! ♥

The party are in action! (HAHA)

(me and Alva when we were getting redy)

Hey guys!

Finally! Soon we're going to the cinema in town... And... WATCH THE HUNGER GAMES! Yes, I'm deadly excited! I'm jumping up and down!!!!

Hey you guys!
I just have to say, OH MY GOD!
When me and my friends came out from school about 15:45 it was WARM outside!
The sun was shining, the birds sang and the winds were warm. How as amazing isn't that? And I enjoyed it so much, I really needed this, I need heat and sun.
And tomorrow it's going to be even warmer, and I'm going on the hunger games... CAN'T WAIT!!! x)

Took some pics when a was outside walking with Frida. ♥